Today’s Read: Sleep Test

Sometimes, I’ll use my experiences as the resource. 🙂

I did an at-home sleep test a couple weeks ago, and I got my results last Friday. I have severe obstructive sleep apnea, which my sleep specialist also thinks is REM-specific sleep apnea (meaning it gets worse when I hit the REM stage of sleep). She also believes I have delayed sleep phase syndrome.

Combined, I struggle to fall asleep, and when I do fall asleep, my sleep is shitty. When I say I’m tired, I truly mean it. I never wake up feeling refreshed.

I’ve also commented to both my husband and my therapist that I think it’s a miracle I’m still alive. My oxygen saturation levels got down to 83%, called hypoxemia. Fun.

The thing is . . . the number of health issues I have that could be connected to this is obnoxious.

  • Pre-diabetic? I consume a lot of sugar just to stay away and have energy.
  • Weight: Connected to the lack of sleep and sugar consumption.
  • Fatigue: Duh.
  • Body aches: From fatigue.
  • Anxiety: Probably because my brain isn’t getting enough rest.
  • ADHD: Possibly because my brain isn’t getting enough oxygen.
  • GERD: Possibly because anxiety has me in constant fight or flight mode, which is because I don’t get enough rest.

That’s not even all of it. And to think . . . doctors always wanted to blame stuff on my weight.

To say I’m looking forward to a change in my sleep quality is an understatement. I’m getting an autopap in a week or so, and I’ll keep y’all updated on that process. I know it takes time to adjust to sleeping with any kind of apnea-assistance machine, but I’m happy to try it for as long as I need. After all . . . it’s not like my sleep could get much worse. (I should be careful what I say.)

Anyone else have this much shit with their sleep?!

Today’s Resource: Sleep

Sleep is a great resource. We don’t appreciate it enough. Not getting enough sleep can literally kill you, but if it doesn’t get that bad, it can cause a host of other issues. Shall I be your evidence?

My dentist reminded me yesterday that I’m grinding my teeth (likely when I sleep), which messed up the placement of a crown on my tooth. After a few years of her trying to get me to do a sleep test, I actually had one scheduled that same day. I’ve never heard my dentist sound so pleased.

I did the sleep test last night. Hated it. Didn’t sleep well (oh, the data they’re going to get from me). I woke up around six something, took off the contraption, then went back to sleep. I didn’t wake up until 11 a.m., but I had a dermatology appointment at noon. However, I had to fill out a COVID screening, and I had to be honest that I was experiencing fatigue, and that required me to reschedule. (But I’m ALWAYS experiencing fatigue because I don’t sleep healthily.)

Not only did shitty sleep cause me to go to the dentist, but it also required me to reschedule a different appointment.

And that’s not even getting into my mad need for sugar and carbs because I never have enough energy to get through the day, and how that caused me to be pre-diabetic at my last doctor’s appointment.

Y’all. I’m pretty sure sleep is the meaning of life.

Today’s Read: Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome

You know that person who hates doing anything before noon? If you ask them to meet up for breakfast, they’re like, “Uh, you mean breakfast for dinner, right?” It’s me. I’m that person.

For my entire life, I’ve been made to feel lazy and immature because I’m not a morning person. People assume I’m irresponsible, and when I push to have meetings later in the day, you can sense the judgment. When I say, “I’d rather stay up and work at 2 in the morning,” people think I’m odd. And damn near everyone thinks it’s something to fix. One of my old bosses would laugh at me and accommodate me for half an hour. He’d think I was being ridiculous when I grumbled about teaching 8 a.m. classes. All I have to do is get up early and suck it up, right? Or worse, I get tons of unsolicited advice on what to take, what to try, etc. Yeah no. I’ve tried it. Forty years of sleep issues. I’ve tried it. Please save your suggestions.

But guess what? It might not be something people can control. I’m working with a sleep specialist, and she thinks I’m dealing with Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome. It’s rare I fall asleep right away. I went to bed at 11:30 last night, exhausted, and I don’t think I fell asleep until 2 or 3 in the morning. I wanted to sleep. Badly. But I couldn’t. And yet my brain woke me up at 8 a.m. because sleeping later is frowned upon. Mind you, I stay in bed for at least an hour in the hopes that I’ll go back to sleep, but I usually don’t. And then I’m tired all day and think about napping, but if I nap, it’ll interfere with my sleep even more.

On any given night, I might sleep three hours or I might sleep ten. I never have any idea what I’m going to get. Add in the possibility of sleep apnea (sleep test coming soon), and yeah, there’s a reason my answer is always, “I’m tired,” when you ask how I am. I’m not just life tired; I’m actually sleep deprived.

And guess what else? That probably impacts my weight, my mental health, my physical health, and so on. And because I know I’m not alone in this, DO YOU UNDERSTAND NOW WHY I AM FOREVER TELLING MY STORIES TO TRY AND HELP OTHERS?! Like . . . no one tells you this shit. You have to figure it out as you go, and that gets old.

I get tired of having all the things that make me who I am assumed to be character flaws. Y’all . . . I wanna be normal, but I’m literally not wired that way. This is why I’m always trying to embrace my weird.

End whine.